So there you were, lying on your bed with your thoughts that become too much to handled. You tried to prevent those tears from falling, but no matter how hard you tried it didn’t work. No matter how much you wiped away your tears, there were keep falling down your face. You realized that everything was too complicated. You were afraid of getting hurt again, afraid of getting your heart to be crushed into pieces again, and worse, you were afraid of not being able to trust anyone ever again. And that night, finally you found yourself were getting hurt. Your heart has been crushed into pieces. Your trust has been completely broken. You felt betrayed. You blamed yourself for being not good enough.
You blamed yourself for being so confidence that you were the one. You blamed yourself for being too naive for thinking that you could changed things. You blamed yourself for believe that people actually mean what they say, but in fact, they just kept telling you lies. And you ended up hurting yourself but you still tried to finding a good things in hurting yourself. That was the kind of moment where all you could do was nothing but let them kept happening.
It was not easy to bear as it seemed, no, not after what had happening. You felt lost and you didn’t know what to do. Nothing seemed to be going right for you. You wanted to let things go, but you realized that you were not ready to give up. You will not. So, in the end, you just wanted to try to believe in something good. You wanted to try to believe that this time would be different. But the only thing you wanted the most was for things to be okay again, like it used to be. - Enjoy The silence
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